Last Saturday, hubby attended a wedding. Since the bride and groom are his good friends, he went for the solemnization ceremony as well.
As for the kids and I, I decided to bring them for some fun and it needs to be somewhere near since I wont be around on Sunday for work related matters. Further, it was a public holiday hence there was no therapy for Rayyan Ariff.
We brought him to Berjaya Time Square Theme Park and when we got there, he was happily walking around with us holding one of his hands.
After a while, he lifted his hands and asked to be carried. It was pretty strange for him to do that as in the norm, he really enjoy his walking sessions.
After a very long queue for entry tickets, we went to McD to wait for my sister. Rayyan Ariff again refused to walk. Even worse, he refused to put his left foot down. No weight bearing. No step taking. In just a few minutes apart, he started crying.
I was panicking as I thought there was something wrong with his left foot. Bitten by something? Accidently cut by something? As I was pressing the sole of his foot, my heart cried to see that he was helplessly crying and trying to pull his leg away as a gesture of asking me to stop pressing his foot sole.
Then I looked at his little toe, it was really red and a bit swollen. That particular moment, I knew it was his shoes! It's too tight for him! We bought the shoes last year for RM700 and I know that it will be just a matter of time for us to get a new one since children tends to outgrow their shoes and clothes pretty fast.
Since it is a special shoes, I dont really know what would the sign of tightness be as it needs to be worn tightly. I did ask Sarjit to check it a week before whether it needs to be changed or not and according to Sarjit, it is still OK.
I was so sad when this thing happened. This whole thing made me realised one thing, my toddler is so helpless that he could not even tell me that his shoes were too tight for him. When my heart was silently crying in sadness, I told myself, "I will work on something and double my effort. I will make sure one day you'll be able to tell me if you're in pain or discomfort. I will try my best."
Upon shouting those words in my mind, I felt like I've been hit on my head again!
"This is the reason why He gives you a special child like Rayyan Ariff. Because giving up is a big no for you! Cry no more because you are special, too.."
Yes, that's my promise to you son. To be more proactive.
This is how we spell our life, S-P-E-C-I-A-L