Could it be a sign..

Terasa dalam dilema.. Terasa sesak utk bernafas.. Terasa tersekat utk bercakap.. Everytime I look at Rayyan’s face, I feel so guilty for not being with him all the time.. I know that this point of time is the most crucial time for his development, so, I need to spend as much time as possible to stimulate him..

Kata seorang teman, “Ala.. kerjaya pun penting, kita keje pun utk anak jgk.. Bukan org lain pn..” Yes, definitely.. Tapi, apa guna duit kalau hati tak tenteram and terus dihantui rasa bersalah.. Maybe I should take unpaid leave for a month or two (or maybe three.. hehehhe). But, looking at my dept workload at the moment, rasa tak sampai hati jugak.. I wonder whether I can find any other word than ‘Thank you’ to show how grateful I am that I have my boss as a boss and my colleagues as my colleagues.. Most importantly, my company who’s paying for the medical bill..

I don’t believe in horoscope because I know that Allah SWT is always with hamba-hambaNya yang sabar.. But just now, I read this somewhere..

“Libra; If you really want to connect with someone, then skip the small talk and go deep.”

Walaupun x applicable sgt, tp applying this to my situation, Rayyan la orgnya.. Hehehhe.. Could it be a sign? Tak pernah2 plak baca, tp hari ni tertengok di saat2 jiwa kacau ni.. Hmm.. Macam mn ek??