Going back to work..

I'm going back to work this monday. Rasa malas sangat2.. After 2 months n a half of break, mmg xde hati nk ngadap keje.. Yang paling penting, rasa sayang nk tggl Rayyan.. When we took him home, berat dia 2.4kg jer.. Dan dengan bangganya, saya yang x pernah ade pengalaman ini telah berjaya menjaga Rayyan, sepenuhnya..(of course dgn bantuan hubby bila dia bercuti dan hari minggu.. hehheeh.. my mom dh blk masa Rayyan blk from hospital..). Sekarang, Rayyan sudah 4kg.. Dan mummy akan mengambilalih tugas menjaga Rayyan untuk sebulan.. (terima kasih mummy, kerana sudi dtg from KB demi Rayyan.. dulu dtg coz jaga mama Rayyan masa berpantang.. Memang tak terbalas).

Pipi saya sudah tembam.. Hehehe..

Age : 2 months & 3 weeks

Corrected age : 23 days old

Actually, saya sebenarnya dalam dilema.. When you guys went back to work, tinggalkan baby dgn sape ek? I dont know bout u guys, but I feel like semua orang (except my mom) cam x layak jaga Rayyan.. Takut ade kurang.. Maybe if he's not a premature baby I wont feel this way.. Most of the time, it took him about one hour to finish 4oz of milk. Kalau lambat sangat, takut org x sabar n terus stop.. Mama dia, sampai cramp leher pn sanggup coz nk bagi Rayyan besar.. Rayyan pun jarang menangis walau pun lapar.. Hanya merengek.. (Mn la tau, nnt babysitter dia wat x kesah sgt since dia x nangis..)

Ambik maid? Well, I dont think that it is a good idea to leave him with the maid alone. Bleh caya ke? Baik bagi babysitter yang kita dah pilih.. Tapi bleh ke?? My mom ade mention nk bwk blk KB and jaga dia kat sana.. Memang la kitorg leh blk 2 mgg skali.. Tp honestly, x sanggup nk berpisah dgn Rayyan.. Even if it is for his own good.. (Pegi JJ kejap pn dh rasa guilty giler).. My MIL pun sanggup nk jaga Rayyan n bagi kitorang bwk blk seminggu sekali.. Walaupun Rawang x sejauh KB, still xnk berpisah dgn Rayyan! Nk ulang-alik KL to Rawang, mesti penat kan? Ntah la.. Kalau dh xde jalan, I'll take unpaid leave la.. (I knw my boss wll understand..).

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Ade sape2 bleh bg idea tak? It's not that I'm too mengada-ngada sampai isu ni pun jd besar.. I just dont want to leave Rayyan in a wrong hand. Huh, susah betul.. My PIL even said that he wll never forgive us if we leave Rayyan kat nursery or rumah org.. Biar la dulu.. I'll think about it when the time comes. Skrg, biar mummy jaga dulu..

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Went to JJ Balakong with my bro ptg td, World of Cartoons ade sale.. 50% lak tu.. So korang, serbu jgn x serbu.. Mmg rambang mata.. Tunggu hubby blk ni.. Definitely have to go again, shopping baju raya for Rayyan.. Dalam2 kalut nk blk awal, sempat grab a few things for him.. Yang paling puas hati..

Tenderly Infant shoes

Looney Tunes white jeans..

Handsome laa Rayyan raya nanti! Hehehhe.. 1st time blk KB, image kena jaga Ian! (Sebenarnya mama yang terlebih nk blk KB, eventhough ths year turn Rawang.. Xpe, hutang dulu.. Lain tahun bayar yea hubby tersayang.. hehehhe..)

Sweet Rayyan in Sweet Cherry car seat cum carrier.. The problem is, Rayyan xnk duduk dlm benda alah ni.. This photo was taken when I trained him to sit in it.. X smpi 5min dh menangis nk kuar.. Ade idea tak camne nk make him sit in this thing?? Jauh ni nk blk KB raya nanti.. Huhuhu.. xkan nk pangku.. Gi Pantai Medical Centre bleh la..

P/s - Saya bukan mengada2 smpi xnk tggl anak nk gi keje.. Cuma x smpi hati.. Saya pernah hampir kehilangannya, kerana itu, sebolehnya, saya ingin meluangkan masa saya untuk bersamanya..