Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Masih kepenatan..

I was away for a couple of days.. Atas tuntutan kerja, to be exact.. I left Rayyan Ariff with my younger sister.. The first day when I was not around, Rayyan refused to eat and only took his milk. But the next day, he was ok already.. Though at times, he'll make sounds like he's protesting..

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Where I was..
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I was so tired and only today I managed to get back the normal me.. Seriously, if just I have loads of money, I would certainly choose to be at home without have to think of masalah negara.. (Yup, my job requires me to think about masalah negara yang tak akan pernah selesai! ~@Sudah bosan@~)..
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Not just that, I'm catching up with physiotherapy for 3 times a week, occupational therapy and speech therapy  for once a week. Driving with a spoilt brat from Ampang to Subang Jaya for five times a week is no joke when most of the time, the lil' brat will try his best to pull his mother's arm, shirt and even tudung because he wants to hold his mother's hand throughout the journey.. How can one drive with just one hand when she's yet to be a pro driver? Seriously, he needs to sit at the back on his own!
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Luckily bibik will be back by end of this week.. So I can now focus more on Rayyan and let her handle the house chores.. =)
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When things are getting out of control, this indescribable feelings of sadness and emptiness starts to kick in.. It seems like no matter how hard I've tried, I still cant put  all the puzzles in place.. So it makes me wonder, when I'm not around later, who'll be taking care of Rayyan and most importantly, how independent can he be? I know it's a question that no one can anwer, but all of us can still pray for the best right? =(
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And today, another hectic day. I'm quite occupied with something that really need to be done before I go back to work in less than 2 months time.. The registration for OKU card. Yes, I've been scolded for doing this but seriously, this is the best for Rayyan Ariff. To me, by holding the card, he will never be less normal compared to us, but the fact that he's different, will be addressed. So to heck with those who just know how to talk.. If you wanna talk or even scold me for this, let's "walk the talk" with me.. Coz everytime I talked, I'm looking for solutions.. Bukan simple talk sahaja kerana ini bukan NATO ok.. =)
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Ok peeps, just a quick update.. Need to get back to work.. *~muah to all~*

17 comments:

Elyn said...

aik jiey dh start keje ke??

Jiey^Mien said...

Elyn, belum officially.. Tp aura2 tu dah ada..
Preparation kononnya..
=P

Rose Nieza said...

Jiey, Ian kena cepat2 ade adik. Nanti adik leh jage Ian. :)

h4ni3 said...

alahai.. tinggal sebulan jer lagi
ada rasa nak extend cuti tak jiey? ;)

ema82red said...

yeay..bibik dah nak balik.. hehehe

Jiey^Mien said...

Rose Nieza:
Owh kalo Ian cepat2 ada adik pun, bukan atas alasan boleh jaga Ian..
InsyaAllah, kami da pikir tamau Ian jadik beban utk adik2 yang lain way before we had him..
Yang penting usaha.. =)
If at the end, takde cara lain, kena come out jugak dgn cara lain.. kalo adik ok pun, tak semestinya partner adik nnt pun akan ok jgk kan? =)

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hanie:
kalo ikut hati mmg nk extend.. tp bila pikir budget.. huhuhu.. da tak bleh da.. Keinginan shopping tgg.. esp utk ian.. so utk memenuhi tuntutan napsu, takleh nk extend lagi dah..

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ema:
suka mmg suka coz umah akan lebih kemas n more relaks.. tp nnt sure dah takleh berdua-duaan ngan Ian..
=(

mummy_adam said...

alah.. dah kena keje, mesti windu ian nnt.. n alhamdulillah.. bibik dah balik, so xlah penat sgt nnt :)

Drama Mama said...

wahh gonna back to work soon eh? i feel u..and i think it's good that u wanna do the OKU card for him. biar la apa orang nak kata, ur the parent n u know what's best for him kan.

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A.I said...

huii...masalah negara tu! isk..kalau aku, mau kejung. tp kau kan ironwomen. harus kuat. dah sehabis baik jaga ryan. bibik dtg nnt lega la kau skit. ala, kau golek2 la ngan dia dlm bilik kalau nk rasa 'berdua-duaan' ngeeeeeeee

ApasH said...

bc ur blog pon bleh rasa betapa bz nye jiey...

yatie chomeyl said...

bagus jiey buat kad OKU tu. ore pun baru buat ko abe sebelum mari sini. dulu maso arwha ma ado, arwah ma tok bui kami regard abe kami as OKU. tp bilo arwah ma dah takdop, baru ore gi buat kad tu ko ake ore. buke nok regard dio as OKU, tp utk kemudahan dio di masa depan.

Marsha~ said...

preparation utk start keje?? bagusnyaa.. pekerja yg dedikasi.. hehehe

maya amir said...

dah naik keje ke?

Jiey^Mien said...

mama adam:
kompem rindu! addicted to rayyan..
tp bila ada dpn mata, asyik tak tahan jer ngan pangai dia..
:P

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mama drama:
yup.. yup.. bia apa org kata.. :P
thanks for the support..
=)

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kak AI:
hahhahhaha.. lawak slapstik ah kak ai..
kot golek2 dlm blk, kena kunci pintu neh.. sat agi bibik pun masuk join..
huhuhuhuhu...

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apash:
busy + penat = garang!
siyan ian ngan ayah ian..
=(

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yatiey:
tu la.. Lg pom memey hak dio key.. sbb byk halange la jadi baru register tuh..
=)

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puterikurekure said...

uishh...berat ye masalah kerja jiey ni. cian jiey. tengah cuti2 pon kena kerja gak.

kisses for Ian. jiey buh gambar Ian banyak2 ek lain kali.

Jiji said...

Alar Jiey, OKU card bukan untuk menagih simpati ke apa. Kadang kita terlalu rasa rendah diri. Mcm VIP .. OKU card is like A VIP card too!! even more special if we come to think about it. Hehehe.

Tarik napas Jiey! Mcm lelah je baca entri ni!! Senyum banyak banyak!!

HUGS!!!

AppleCrux said...

tgh cuti pun kena jugak keje..adeh..capek..capek..

cepatnya masa berlalu, tgk yr ticker dah tak lama lagi nak keje