Masih kepenatan..

I was away for a couple of days.. Atas tuntutan kerja, to be exact.. I left Rayyan Ariff with my younger sister.. The first day when I was not around, Rayyan refused to eat and only took his milk. But the next day, he was ok already.. Though at times, he'll make sounds like he's protesting..

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Where I was..

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I was so tired and only today I managed to get back the normal me.. Seriously, if just I have loads of money, I would certainly choose to be at home without have to think of masalah negara.. (Yup, my job requires me to think about masalah negara yang tak akan pernah selesai! ~@Sudah bosan@~)..

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Not just that, I'm catching up with physiotherapy for 3 times a week, occupational therapy and speech therapy  for once a week. Driving with a spoilt brat from Ampang to Subang Jaya for five times a week is no joke when most of the time, the lil' brat will try his best to pull his mother's arm, shirt and even tudung because he wants to hold his mother's hand throughout the journey.. How can one drive with just one hand when she's yet to be a pro driver? Seriously, he needs to sit at the back on his own!

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Luckily bibik will be back by end of this week.. So I can now focus more on Rayyan and let her handle the house chores.. =)

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When things are getting out of control, this indescribable feelings of sadness and emptiness starts to kick in.. It seems like no matter how hard I've tried, I still cant put  all the puzzles in place.. So it makes me wonder, when I'm not around later, who'll be taking care of Rayyan and most importantly, how independent can he be? I know it's a question that no one can anwer, but all of us can still pray for the best right? =(

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And today, another hectic day. I'm quite occupied with something that really need to be done before I go back to work in less than 2 months time.. The registration for OKU card. Yes, I've been scolded for doing this but seriously, this is the best for Rayyan Ariff. To me, by holding the card, he will never be less normal compared to us, but the fact that he's different, will be addressed. So to heck with those who just know how to talk.. If you wanna talk or even scold me for this, let's "walk the talk" with me.. Coz everytime I talked, I'm looking for solutions.. Bukan simple talk sahaja kerana ini bukan NATO ok.. =)

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Ok peeps, just a quick update.. Need to get back to work.. *~muah to all~*