Still struggling with the same old rejection.. It's very easy for them to tell me not to stop trying, to keep on putting the hearing aids on Rayyan Ariff even for just 10-15mins at a time.. Do they know that it's very hard to put it on, even for just 1 minute?.
Come on la.. We're talking about one healthy and strong toddler here! It's hard OK!! You know what is the hardest part? To hear him crying and to scold him for something that he doesn't know that it is very important for him to wear..
Yes, we keep on trying and hoping that he'll finally give in, but the rejections are too much for us to take.. It's like I'm torturing my own little baby!!.
Earlier, this morning.. It's very heartbreaking to face this every morning before leaving for work!
And this morning, with so much anger and frustration in me, I slapped my two and a half years old son across his face for crying and pulling his hearing aids out! It was not really a slap actually, just merely a touch.. And because the 'so-called-slap' did not effect him any way, let alone to hurt him, he continued with his cry and tantrum! To add some extra spices to the drama, after he has pulled the hearing aids out, he threw the RM4K hearing aid away! My oh my, luckily we just put on one hearing aid.. Because honestly, if both of the hearing aids are broken, we DONT have extra money for a new pair!
|How la not to feel any guilt with this innocent face??|
I left for work feeling so miserable and ended up taking half day leave to compensate Rayyan Ariff with some Mama-son time.. My leave balance? Just another half a day after reserving two more days for Rayyan Ariff's doctor appoinments.
I'm just feeling so damn tired with all of this adjustment that we have to make.. I would do everything to distract him but to no avail, and he's still rejecting it..
I'm deeply tortured and so does him!.
I dont think that he's hurt by the devices.. He's just being difficult. If it's my sister who put the things on, he will just let it be and will wear it for hours.. I guess my sister just has a good control over Rayyan Ariff..
Luckily, she's on her study break and she'll be coming in a day or two to help us in this difficult situation.. =)