Aku YaNg Tak pUaS hAti

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Aku ni bukan a big fan of music industry.. Tp xde la smpi x kenal artis langsung.. Cuma kalo artis baru tu, kureng la sket.. (bunyik cam aku ni tua giler..) hehhehe..

Balik pada topik hari ni.. Ish.. Ish.. Ish.. Hady Mirza is the 1st Asian Idol???
Who actually voted for this guy? Hahahha.. I think who ever did, mesti tengah nyesal..
Not to say he’s not good, but to put his level of singing up to the standard of Asian Idol.. I just think that it is so not enough!

Come on la.. just becoz d guy is cute, some gals (or maybe using the word ‘most gals’ is much more accurate) actually voted for him.. We have Jaclyn Victor.. We have Mike Mohede.. n the most important thing is, we are not deaf!

Our own Ms Jaclyn Victor, her voice is so strong that I really think she deserves to be the Asian Idol.. Agaknya bila menjerit tu leh pecah segala kaca n tingkap yg ade.. Even the judges think so.. and Mike Mohede, he’s just a real songbird.. His voice is so sweet n nice till I actually closed my eyes just to focus on his voice when he sang that day.. (bukan sebab dia x hensem yea.. dia sebenarnya agak cute!)

Being a Malaysian, of course I want Jac to win.. Tp kalau x menang pun, for the pride and dignity of the competition, bagi la Mike Mohede tu menang.. biar la yang patut menang tu menang.. Even juri pun x mention langsung nama Hady Mirza, Phuong Vy tu ke.. x pun yg Indian Idol tu.. Nampak sgt x smpi standard.. Ish, x puas hati betul!!

Bukannya aku nk kutuk sgt Hady Mirza tu.. Kalu Jac n Mike xde, aku x heran pn dia menang.. Ini la agaknya yang jadik kalau peminat yang determine pemenang.. aku rs kalau ade pertandingan world idol, bangga gak la kalo yg represents Asian tu Jac or Mike.. suara diorg nih memang power beb!! Kalau Hady yg gi World Idol, aku senyum n wish gud luck jer la.. Kalo dia menang, nnt aku send la kad kat dia.. heheheh..

Gile! Gile! Gile!

Ada 2 tangan nak buat 1000 keje? Keje gile plak tuh!!! Nyusahkan idup orang betul la.. Aku resign kang... Baru la terkangkang korang.. Buat la statistics tuh! Buat la report tuh! Buat la files aku tuh! Buat la keje2 leceh yang korang sebuk suh aku buat!! Kalau bonus hujung tahun x kencang, aku maki korang cukup2!!! (Tp aku maki dalam hati jer..) Huhuhuhu...
MC seminggu kang... Baru kelam kabut korang!!! Xpun wat cam Ajah, tender resignation, last day delete sumer files kat PC, xpun download jer virus kat mana2... (Tapi aku memang x sampai hati..)

Huhuhuhu.. Sampai ati korang dera aku ek.. Masa aku nak blah korang pujuk2 aku.. Aku blah betul kang.. Hehehehhehe.. xpe.. xpe.. I'll survive.. Aku kan di'train' oleh organisasi yang mengamalkan high performance culture!!! Aku kena la redha agaknya (korang, sarcastic nih).. Tp kan, kalo korang bayar aku gaji tinggi melangit, aku x heran kot korang nk perah keringat aku.. Xpe.. xpe.. aku akan habiskan duit korang dgn cara lain..

AKU HEBAT!!! (Ye ke??!!?).. Kuang.. Kuang.. Kuang..

Cinta yang biasa

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Hari tu, I received a few SMSes from a very good friend of mine – more to a sister actually. She was askin’ bout my feelings when I decided to tie the knot wth hubby.. She was askin’ things like.. How sure I am? Is there any indication that I’m doing the right thing? Is there any sign from Allah that he’s the one?

Well, it seems like somebody is having cold feet.. ~ pre-wedding jitters -- bridal nerves ~ Ok, seriously, how do you differentiate whether the nerves you are having are just cold feet or it’s time to cancel everything? Besides Istikharah & solat sunat hajat, for me, 1st thing to do is to look back.. Ingt kembali kenangan bersama.. senaraikan kebaikan dan keburukan dia.. Bear in mind that nobody’s perfect. Kat sana ade lebih, kat sini plak mesti ade kurang.. Dengan kekurangan tu, tanya diri kita.. Ini ke yang kita nk hadap smpi ke akhirnya? Kalau aku call of the wedding now, aku ni ade hati ke nak cari org lain? Xde pun rasa tu.. Nak je terus stay dgn dia.. Cuma x sure about the decision.. Marriage is something big!

Aku sememangnya x layak untuk bercakap tentang perkahwinan.. Usia perkahwinan aku pun x smpi setahun lg.. Kalo baby, baru boleh meniarap kot..

Perkahwinan sememangnya satu perjudian.. Kita tak tahu untung nasib kita macam mana.. Kalau hari ni hubby boleh announce yang dia sayang giler kat aku, ape jaminan yang boleh dia bagi yang dia xkan berpaling tadah esok atau lusa? Aku pun xde jaminan yang aku boleh setia ke akhirnya.. Hati ni bukan something yang kita boleh control, tapi kita ada akal untuk membantu.. So, tepuk dahi tanya lah minda..

Untuk sahabat itu, ape yang aku boleh lihat ialah kesungguhan si lelaki. Usia perkenalan mereka hampir memasuki tahun ke-7.. Harus kuakui, aku tidaklah begitu mengenali si lelaki (peluang agak kurang..) Tp sepanjang perhubungan mereka, ada sinar bahagia di mata sahabat.. Setiap perhubungan ade turun dan naiknya.. Sahabat pernah menangis teresak-esak di saat hampir kehilangan si jejaka pujaan.. Mungkin aku tidak tahu apa yang terjadi dan tidak tahu details mengenai hubungan mereka, tp kesungguhan si jejaka menunggu selama ini harus diberi pujian.. Jadi mengapa harus ada ragu? Seandainya nanti syaitan masih mengganggu, sandarkan segalanya pada kenangan ye syg.. Jgn difikirkan sgt.. Bagiku, sahabat harus bersyukur kerana dia melalui satu percintaan biasa – gal met guy, both fll in luv, pursue ech othrs dream 1st, then gt married, after tht; hopefully, live happily ever after - (bukan tidak agung, tp normal).. Setiap cinta ade uniknya tersendiri.. Dan bagi mereka yang melalui satu cinta yang biasa, aku mengagumi kalian.. Pertahankan cinta itu.. Rintangan dan halangan adalah sesuatu yang harus kita hadapi..

Dan bagi mereka yang tergolong dalam kategori ‘Cinta Luar Biasa’, terima ia seadanya dan bersyukur dengan apa yang ada.. Jodoh, ajal dan maut semuanya di tangan tuhan.. Kita tidak mampu menolak ketentuanNya.. Persetan dengan umpat keji orang.. Yang ade problem dgn kakak ipar ke, mak mertua ke, pak mertua ke, abg ipar ke, sabar yea.. Kalau yang beli newspaper tu, rajin2 la jengah ke ruangan yang mintak2 nasihat tu – “Di Celah-celah Kehidupan”, “Dang Setia” , “Fikrah Dr. Salam” atau “Anda Tanya Dr. Mashitah Jawab”.. Bila baca permasalahan orang2 ni, seharusnya kita bersyukur yang kita tidak berada di tahap itu.. Dan sentiasalah berdoa agar kita dijauhkan oleh perkara2 sedemikian ok!!

To all, this is a very sweet song that you can share with the special one..

Tiada Ragu – Aqasha & Amy Mastura (Ost Cinta 3 Musim)

P kau masih dihati bagai pelangi yang menerangi
L ku masih menanti kasih kabuskan pasti pergi
P dan bermusim warna cinta
tak ku sampai tiada jua tercapai
dalam lara tiadalah ku sedar
di pinggir masa korus
P oh kekasih engkau satunya
tak mungkin berubah cintaku hati teruja
biar ku rebah rela berduka
asal indah bersamamu selama-lamanya
oh oh..
L ku terima semua
kerna kau ada di dalam jiwa
P telah ku cuba tak terdaya
semakin dalam kasih membakar rasa
L daku jua gelora jiwa..
seringkali terduga
P/L oh kekasih engkaulah satu
Bersama mengukir janji di awan biru
Biarkan musim, biar berlalu
Agar seri kasih mu tak layu dan rapuh
Tiadaku ragu..
Tiadaku ragu..

Gantung

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Melly Goeslow - Gantung

Ku harus menemui cintaku
Mencari tahu hubungan kita
Apa masih atau tlah berakhir
Kau menggantungkan hubungan ini
Kau diamkan aku tanpa sebab
Maunya apa ku harus bagaimana
Kasih… Sampai kapan kau gantung
Cerita cintaku memberi harapan
Hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi
Dan meninggalkan dirimu
Detik-detik waktu pun terbuang
Teganya kau menggantung cintaku
Bicaralah biar semua pasti
Tentunya hubungan cinta denganmu
Membuat ku sakit
Hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi
Dan meninggalkan dirimu

Musim cuti ni byk terima undangan ke majlis perkahwinan kan? Manusia dijadikan berpasang-pasangan.. Itu lumrah alam dan hukum kehidupan.. Memang kita boleh lantang berbicara,
"Ooh.. I've everything that I've ever needed! I got my family, my friends, n I got lots of money to spend.. I'm complete!!"

Sejujur manakah kita pada diri sendiri kalau ini yang kita laungkan? Tak terusikkah hati tiap kali melihat teman2 bahagia disisi pasangan masing2? Jalan berpimpin tangan, keluar bersama membeli barang dapur, lebih ironi kalau memangku bayi yg comel denagn mata yang bulat dan bundar.. (Adoption is one thing, but the connection between bio-mother-daughter is simply amazing I suppose.. So there wll alwiz be a diff! Tho I really cant imagine how to carry a baby in ur belly for 9 months)

Dulu, aku pun sama.. Pernah terpikir yang aku xkan kawin.. Perkahwinan & lelaki sangat menyusahkan.. Bila tgk kawan2, bercinta bagai nak rak.. bila gaduh pun sama, dunia macam dh nak pecah.. Kawan2 yang x buat apa2 pun kena tempias.. Yang dah kawin laki buat perangai, lagi la sedih..

Tp walau apa pun pengalaman orang, kita still nak harungi jugak.. Bila hati dah terpanggil utk menyambut seruan cinta dan pintu jodoh sudah sampai, kita memang x boleh lari..

Masa single, korang penah x alami symptoms ni --> kita rasa yang kita rindu kat someone, tapi x tahu sape? Rasa nak ade boyfriend dan dan tu jugak, tapi xkan nak tangkap muat jer.. Ramai scandal, sms x berenti, tp hati tetap x tenang coz kita still rasa ade yang amiss? Syukur tgk kawan2 bahagia tp ade timbul sedikit perasan cemburu, bila masa kita akan smpi? Kalau yg dh clash, ade waktu teringat-ingat kenangan bersama si dia.. Kalau betul itu semua x perlu, kenapa ade rasa yang tertinggal?

Kawan mungkin akan berada disisi kita.. Tp akan ada waktu bila dia juga perlu berada di sisi keluarganya.. Dan bila waktu itu datang, kita bersyukur kerana kita masih ada cinta..
Kepada yang masih single, aku doakan semoga kalian akan terima jodoh yang sesuai.. Yang dengan tanpa ragu, korang boleh proudly announce.. "I've met my soulmate and we really completed each other.." Aminnnn...

P/s - ari ni bangun pagi, kuar jer bilik air, tgk hubby tgh jemur baju.. fuh, kembang hati.. rasa nk peluk jer.. dh la demam.. xyah bersuruh dah sekarang.. bagus.. bagus.. makin jinak nih.. hehheheh..

Bila nak dapat baby???

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Ni soklan lazim yang akan ditanya pada couple yang baru kawin atau pun yang dah lama kawin tp still berdua lagi.. Definition lama tu depends la.. kadang-kadang 6 bulan tu dh kira lama dh.. kalau yang bertahun tu ape lagi kan? Tp manusia ni ada time cover2 gak la, kalau dh 4/5 thn kawin org x berapa nk tanya gak.. Sensitif..

Kenapa orang tanya? Memang sebab sj2 nk tau ke? Atau ni just a common question utk org yg xde baby lg, sebab org lain tanya, kita pun nk tanya? Atau pun dh x sabar nk dpt anak sedara n tangan dah terasa nk beli baby gifts? Or memang saja2 tanya, xde spesific reason.. Ntah la.. aku pun x sure yang mana satu sbb dia.. Org yang tanya la yang patut lbh tahu..

Aku pun sbnrnya tergolong dlm golongan ni gak.. Bila kawan2 kawin, after a few months, aku pun akan tanya soklan yang sama.. Kalau yg dah sound awal2 "Family Planning", xde la aku nk tanya lagi kan.. kang kena x paham bahasa plak.. Sbb memang dh nature, xde couple - bercinta - tie the knot - dpt baby! Tu yang orang tanya tu kot..

Bila kita pop this question out, tanpa kita sedari, sebenarnya kita akan buat couple yang memang mengharap nk dpt baby sedih.. Orang tu memang ternanti2, kita plak sibuk2 nak tanya.. Kang ade yang meraung kang.. Dah xde rezeki, xkan nk paksa2 plak.. Sape yg nk sengaja2 tolak bundle of joy kan?

Aku? Memang byk soalan2 camni, kalo tiap kali orang yang tanya tu bagi aku RM10, agak2nya dh cukup gaji sebulan kot.. (Atau lebih..) Camne nak jawab ek? Ntah.. Ade sape2 nk jawab utk aku tak?

Rezeki tuhan.. ada, ada le.. X gitu? Gitu.. Gitu..

Hati lara, aku kecewa..

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Susah sangat ke nak bagi? Kalau orang lain leh dapat, nape kita x bleh? Pelik.. Kadang2 tu xyah mintak pun.. Siap x appreciate pn ade.. Ke aku yang x sedar n x appreciate?
Susah kot nak dapat, tu yang susah nak bagi tu.. Payah la kalau berterusan camni.. Nape dia tak bagi ek? Pelik.. Pelik.. Mana leh mengharap jer.. Kena usaha la.. Bukan x usaha pun, dah cari dah.. Xkan nak curi kot.. Boleh ke curi? Hairan.. Hairan..
Nk kerek x bleh, coz aku bukan dia.. Korang x paham? Aku pn x paham.. Confused!!!

Bila laki masuk dapur..

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Lst Saturday, my bro a.k.a. abe wat open house from 730 onwards. Atas sebab2 tertentu, I was in charged of cooking.. Tapi untuk spaghetti, mee sanggul and bihun only.. :P

Yang jadi isu sgt tu, masak byk2 for 200 guests.. For a beginner like me, that’s a lot! Tapi xpe, abe janji nk dtg umah kul 11am nk tolong.. n dia x bagi start wat spaghetti selagi dia x smpi coz dia nk blaja.. Kul 11, start potong bawang..
“Banyaknya bawang nk kena potong dadu.. Ish, x larat ni.. xpe.. xpe.. mintak tlg hubby..” Hati kecil berbisik..
“Abangggggg.. tolong potong bawang!” Lebih kepada arahan, bukan mintak tolong lg..
“Jap yanggg..” – Lepas 10min baru masuk dapur..

Alhamdulillah.. ade org tlg.. Tapi hampeh, baru potong 3/4 bijik, dh berenti..
“Tak tahan la yang.. pedih mata.. Ayang xpe la.. pki spect” Huh alasan.. Malas la nk paksa kalo org xnak buat…

Dh kul 3, kuah spaghetti kat atas dapur, baru buat daging, ayam lom start lagi.. Bihun baru satu bungkus, mee sanggul x start lagi.. huhuhuhu.. Nak nangis.. Dah la xde kuali besar, sebungkus je skali goring.. masak aku.. dengan perasaan x puas ati, bawak carrot sebatang dgn pisau n chopping board gi depan tv..
“Abang, potong dadu!!!” Hubby tau aku tgh hangin kot, dia diam jer.. Cepat2 potong n x banyak songeh.. Pastu aku suh dia masak spaghetti.. – Lama benar dia rebus, bila aku tanya,
“Lom lagi tu.. Jap lagi.. Tunggu jap lagi..”

Pastu hubby ilang ntah gi mana.. dgn separa mengamuk, aku call handphone dia..
“Abang gi mana? Orang dh nk mati ni.. x reti2 nk tolong ke?”
“Abang kat luar umah jer ni..”

Masa ni aku dh nak nangis coz marah sgt..
“Tolong tos spaghetti ni n pastu hancurkan ayam tu.. nak wat spaghetti nyer sauce nih!” Suara tersekat-sekat.. Rasa nk sepak jer husband sdr..
Muka hubby x puas ati, tapi dia x kata ape coz aku tgh marah.. Dengan nada nk mintak simpati,
“Haii.. Orang mintak tolong masak, kita sanggup.. pastu abe takdok, laki kena marah..” (Aku dh nak tergelak masa hubby ckp nih, tp kena maintain muka marah.. biar dia x curik tulang)
“Eii.. nape spaghetti tu pendek2?” Aku x puas ati..
“Hmmmh..” Hubby merengus, dh la suh dia buat, komplen plak.. instead of menjawab dgn rs x puas hati, dia buat lawak..
“Ala, pendek2 la senang orang nk mkn..” Aku yg tgh nk marah, terus tergelak.. –Tapi kalo korang tgk spaghetti tuh, mmg klakar.. dah la kembang semacam.. overcooked..

Kul 4 baru abe smpi.. Aku tgh goreng mee sanggul “Nape dtg lambat? terkial-kial masak sorang2 weh!”..
“Sorry.. sorry.. lama sgt ngemas umah.. byk sgt sampah” Coz umah bujang, aku terima alasan dia..
“Errr.. nape spaghetti ni kembang2 n pendek2?” Abe tgk semacam..
“Orang tu tolong buat pn dh kira untung tau.. x menang tangan nk buat semua.. Janji nk dtg awal!” Aku cover hubby walau hakikatnya spaghetti itu mmg klakar..

Bila dah ramai, cepat jer keje.. Kul 6 keje dh settle.. Tp abe rebus 2 plastik lagi spaghetti.. x puas ati tgk spaghetti hubby yang kembang + pendek kot.. hehhehehe.. Korang, abe bawak kawan nama Azmi.. Mie kata dia solo lg.. Rajin wooo.. Bila aku siap masak, dia kutip sumer benda, periuk belanga.. pinggan mangkuk.. tolong basuh.. mmg leh wat laki / menantu la.. bila kau puji dia kata “Sy x reti masak, sy boleh basuh2 jer..” x kisah la.. janji ko rajin..

Bila keje dh settle, kitorang pun siap2 nk gi open hse yanti kat puchong.. Nape la Yanti x wat terus majlis kawin dia.. dia nyer grand dh ala2 taraf majlis kawin dh tu.. siap karaoke bagai.. Pastu gi umah abe.. lepak lama gak kat sana.. (Ramai tanya nape kembang + pendek).. tak kisah la.. janji leh makan n kuah meletup.. Terima kasih untuk hubby..

Esoknya.. “Ayang, bangun yang.. kita gi open hse Bani jom..” Kul 9 lbh hubby kejut..
“Boleh, tp abg kena mop dapur dulu.. satu dapur tu kotor..” Aku senyum..
“Aikk.. kena lagi!!! Mana abe????” Dengan berat hubby melangkah ke dapur…

Hahahhahah.. terima kasih sayang.. Luv u!!!

Cemburu Sang Suami

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Last Saturday, when we had makan2 at our place, one of our guest – Fieyza, brought along a senior from my old school, Maher with her; Q, . Being me, a bit gila2, dh terbuat sedikit lawak bodoh.. Masa Fieyza n Q nk blk, aku hulur tangan nk salam dgn Q (dengan gaya gedik n ayat bodoh aku – “eh, ni senior nih, wajib salam!!”. Unexpectedly, Q sambut la tangan aku which is too fast for me to take back my hand. N guess what, hubby is sitting just next to Q. Biey kata, muka hubby berubah time tu..

Maybe Q doesn’t know that I’m just being silly n I don’t really mean it.. aku pun hulur gak tangan nak salam ngan Sunny, bf Seetha.. siap nk cium pipi lagi.. n of course Sunny x sambut coz he knew that I ws just joking. Yup, I’m no angel! I’ve shook hand with many guys at work (I take it as a culture that could not be avoided). Tapi salam dengan laki lain depan hubby tp sebarang sbb, belum penah terpikir nk buat… n x budget pn akan buat... xde point pun tetiba nk salam dgn orang yang bukan muhrim.. (talking about muhrim, still, aku bukannya baik sgt.. dgn sepupu laki bleh plak aku gi salam.. pdhal jelas dlm Islam yang sepupu ni sah nikah.. tu yang aku rasa benda ni subjective n indescribable).. Baik salam n cium tangan hubby, lg best – tangan dia besar wooo.. penumbuk dia mmg x kalah ah.. tgk badan la kan?

Aku x kisah pn kalo org lain buat, ramai je kawan2 aku yang camtu.. berlaga pipi laki n pompuan.. to them, it’s normal coz bukan diorg buat dgn nafsu pun.. bukan French kiss pun.. I totally have nothing against all this people.. Cuma aku mmg x comfortable nk buat n x ingin nak buat.. Tu je la kot..

Back to hubby, dia memang marah n jealous.. He raised questions yang ntahpape.. “Nape dgn dia sorang je salam?”, “Nape dgn org lain x salam?”, “Suka kat dia masa sekolah lagi ke?”.. To me, all this questions are rubbish! Kan aku dh cakap, aku hulur main2.. not just to Q, kat Bf Nurul, Pojie pn aku hulur.. Nama pun gurau2.. Nk mengeratkan silaturrahim la konon.. :p

Before kwn2 aku blk dia dh tunjuk muka. Kitorg masuk bilik n had a stupid argument on this. Pastu dia keluar bilik.. Tunggu kawan2 aku blk la tu.. Thanks to Esoh for giving a stupid suggestion.. “Kalu mung nok, aku bulih sale nge dio masa nk blk pahni, pah mung maroh la ko dio pulok!” or in standard BM – “Kalau ko nk, aku leh salam ngan dia (hubby) masa nk blk pasni, nnt ko leh la marah dia plak..”

Tapi hampeh, masa Esoh n Najah blk, diorg main blah jer.. takut nk tegur hubby.. muka garang tu.. Pas salam ngan Bf Liniey, hubby masuk bilik.. aku plak kalut kat dapur kemas makanan2 lebih with E n B.. 1.30, aku masuk bilik (dgn harapan nk ngamuk ni, ada ke tunjuk ‘muka’ depan kawan aku). Tapi hubby dh tertido, kepenatan.. The next morning, dia bangun awal coz nk gi AmBank nyer paintball tournament. And he woke me up with 2 kisses on my cheeks and 1 on my lips. Aku yang sememangnya ego, terus pusingkan badan. Xnak tengok muka dia..

Later aku realize, maybe ni la gaduh dlm berumahtangga.. Hv arguments at nite, frgt about it the nxt day.. Having this in my mind, aku tolak tepi kemarahan aku.. Bila hubby call in the afternoon, aku ckp elok2 dgn dia.. malas nk merajuk lama2..

Petang tu gi jln2 umah member yg buat open hse. N we ddnt mention bout d incident anymore.. aku pn cuba avoid sebut pasal tu coz aku tau pakcik ni mmg jeles tinggi..

Cuba teka ape jd next? Ye betul.. Semalam secara x sengaja tersebut lg pasal Fieyza n Q. Terus dia bagi “Alaa, jantan yang Ayang salam tu la, lain kali jgn gedik nk salam dgn jantan tau..” Chhhaiss.. ini sudah lebih ni.. aku sound la blk.. “Hah, dh tau gedik, nape kawin gak? Pegi la carik pompuan yang x gedik!!!”.. Terus dia pegang n cium tangan aku.. Haaa.. tau takut.. kang ade yang tido kat luar kang!!! Tapi kalo ikut hubby.. dia kata bukan takut, tapi sayang bini..

Pastu hubby justify la nape dia jeles, biar la aku simpan reasons itu..

Special thanks to Biey & Fadia

Entry from previous post

This is not an actual open house.. better use d term – a tryout! InsyaAllah, it will be much better next year.. Those who couldn’t make, I guess it’s ok.. Kalau dipanjangkan umur, we still have more years to go.. Those who had came, thnks a lot.. Really appreciate it.. Those who has not been invited or were informed very very late, please accept our request for forgiveness.. It’s just a tryout.. Will have a better one in the future – (when I’m getting better at cooking!) A very special thanks goes to Biey and Fad for their help.. I would have been sooooo exhausted if you guys were not around! N thanks to E for clearing some of the foods…

Aku, Hubby dan Raya..

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Alhamdulillah.. raya dah selamat.. walau ramai yang mengatakan raya tu sebulan, tp yang kemuncaknya tuh dh berlalu.. Syukur ke hadrat Ilahi di atas kurniaNya.. Raya tahun ni cukup meriah.. mendekatkan yang jauh dan merapatkan yang dekat.. semoga kebahagian akan terus berkekalan..

Kesyahduan tatkala mengucup tangan suami di pagi hari raya dh dpt aku rasai.. Tahun depan lg syahdu rasanya.. raya di perantauan dengan keluarga mertua la pulak.. Takpe, Selangor – Kelantan bukannya jauh sgt.. Petang raya ke leh la blk kampung aku lak.. Org lain yg raya kat oversea tuh lagi la.. tak gitu?

1st day of raya, we were in Green + Cream.. I know, I’m fat n I don’t look good in Kebaya anymore.. tp xpe la.. nk wat camne, nk pki jugak! Hehehe.. Ni gambor adk aku yang sibuk nk pki hijau gak.. Aku mmg mewah btul tahun ni.. baju raya smpi 6 psg.. Satu jer kain beli, balance hadiah tu..

Best woo makan ns dagang kat umah.. ade gulai ayam, ikan, udang galah etc.. Dh memang jadi tradisi raya kitorg serve nasi dagang.. Ramai sgt org dtg umah kitorang walau pun hujan lebat gak petang raya tu.. Mlm raya 1st tu, kitorg gi umah makcik2 aku.. Ma & Mek.. Seronok dpt b’kumpul ramai2 camni..

2nd day of raya, umah kitorang ade satay pulak.. Tghari aku n hubby gi umah mak sepupu dia. Balik tu gi Rantau Panjang umah tok nenek n nenek sedara aku.. Kul 6 plak kat umah kawan abah; Ayah Lek. Malam tu plak ade BBQ kat umah Ma.. Aku tukang bancuh air.. sorry la kalo termasam sket Ice Lemon Tea tu.. Oren tu rasanya dh ok dh.. Hubby plak x berenti dok bakar ayam.. Dh la pagi tuh dia sibuk cuci ayam dgn abah, Ayah Soh n Abg Man.. Siye dio.. moga2 dia x takut nk raya kat Kelate lg nxt 2 years.

3rd day of raya, hubby & I + Liniey n Biey went to Aya’s hse.. Aya nyer majlis persandingan. We were too early. Don’t have d chance to see her in her wedding dress.. xpe la, nnt mesti dia upload kat friendster.. J Yup, dia sanding berlima.. Abang Aya + Kakak Ipar + Aya + Hubby + Baby.. Congrats! Balik tu terus terkejar gi umah Wanie.. It’s her engagement! She really looks nice in her pink + cream lace. 5 something, gerak gi umah Ajah.. Open house.. Gilo la mung Esoh.. terik urat perut aku dok suko nge mung! Mlm, tolong mami masak coz Pakcik Mazlan datang mkn kat umah. Hubby n Jek gi majlis tahlil umah Wanie.. Abe plak, as always, ngelat!

4th day of raya, gi umah atok sedara aku, Ayah Chik.. Alhamdulillah.. dia n family sihat hendaknya.. before that gi umah Wadie, hsemate abe.. Ptg, gi jalan2 3 buah umah.. sumer sedara mara hubby – Ayah San, Tok Mi & Ayah Mat. Sampai la ke malam.. Malam tu plak singgah umah Pakcik Mazlan, BBQ lagi.. Both of us were exhausted! Blk tu tido x ingt dunia..

5th day of raya, blk KL.. on our way back, tayar kete meletup.. nasib baik xde ape2.. Ye dunia, kereta Perdana Merah yang penumpang2 dan pemandunya lopong di tepi jalan selama 3 jam kat Merapoh itu adalah kami. Tunggu pomen coz xde spanar nk bukak walaupun tayar spare ade. Nasib baik pomen from Kechau sanggup dtg. Kalau x, xtau la ape jd.. Anyway, Pipi n Biy, thnks for trying to help. Kul 4 lebih, singgah kat umah MakCik Nab kat Bukit Betong, pas mkn n solat teruskan perjalaan. Kul 9 baru smpi Ampang.. Mlm tu tido x ingt.. Hubby n Jek mkn nasi dgn telur goreng jer.. Memang xde lauk pon kat umah. Kira ok la tu ade beras nk masak nasik.. :P

6th & 7th day of raya, we went to Rawang, stay for a nite kat sana.. Siyan gak mak mertua aku rindu kat ank dia.. 1st time x raya sama2.. muahahhah.. Beli balang ikan kat rawang.. Hubby sanggup tuh dr Tasik Puteri kuar gi Rawang semata-mata nk carik balang Effiey! Tenkiu sayang.. Yeayy.. Yeayy.. Effiey ade umah baru.. ari jumaat, pas blk frm Rawang, gi tgk movie n shopping barang dapur kat Leisure Mall Cheras. Ntahapape jer citer Otai tuh. Aku pun x faham nape aku tgk.. Ish pelik sungguh. Another important point, ADE RAMAI BUDAK2 DTG RAYA UMAH AKU!!! Fuh.. Kelakar pun ade. Terasa betapa aku telah dewasa n memulakan penghidupan aku sdr.. Dulu budak2 dtg umah mak bapak aku, ni umah aku sdr plak.. Excited woo..

8th day of raya, aku + hubby masak untuk family abang2 dia.. fuh terror aku woo.. masak lunch utk 15 org++.. lauk dia standard la.. ayam goreng, tomyam campur, bawal sweet sour & sayur goreng.. biras2 aku puji tuh.. mak n pak mertua aku pun kata okay.. huh, kembang semangkuk makcik..

Hari2 seterusnya, akan diisi dgn jemputan ke rumah terbuka.. Kitorang plak, jgn Tanya la.. lom sure nk wat open hse coz I hv to admit, aku mmg x reti nk masak byk2.. Sorry! Hehheh..

It's My 25th BirThDay

Entry from previous blog

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Dear all,

Thanks a lot for all the sweet wishes. I wish exactly the same thing for you guys!

I got two cards from hubby. It's really a surprise n I totally don't see it's coming.. He put it under my pillow.. Hahaha.. Can't believe he's also into surprise thingy..

Haihhh.. Having him beside me had made my 25th birthday, a special day ever! No worries, more will come.. InsyaAllah..

Due to some 'things' in d office, the day was ruined! Certain people just loves to see other people suffer.. Pls, do remember.. what comes around goes around.. Kang Allah SWT tunjuk kang, baru tau..

Still, after offc hour, we went to JJ Maluri (because i need to buy something for raya, actually cakes n biscuits for my nenek sedara..)..

Hubby had a very long queue when he bought my befday cake. Although it’s only 2 days to go before raya, there’re still lots of people. We headed to Madam Lim’s Kitchen, the only available place at that time.. We ordered chicken chop fried rice, sayur tauge, telur dadar n tomyam. The portion is quite besar.. I cudnt finish my ns goreng..

Later on, we went to star time.. Hubby bought me a new watch.. sepasang ngan dia.. Xde la aku berkenan sgt coz aku nk satu jam BUM nih.. Tp dah dia nk sedondon, biar la dia..

Then we went back home. Meriah tgk jiran2 sebelah.. lampu lip lap merelip sabung menyabung.. cam ade competition lak.. Before we went off to bed, aku tiup lilin n potong kek dengan hubby.. Cant post d photos coz a bit sexy la.. Nama pun nk tido..

Hubby, thnks 4 being there..

Effiey Si Ikan Laga

Entry from my previous blog

I have ths one very cute ikan laga and I named him Effiey. Still, I dunno whether it’s a he or she. But since the nature of ikan laga is its strength, so I personally think that Effiey is a he. I bought him for our little man-made pond, (hubby n I fail to maintain the pond well, so there’re lots of mosquito larva in it).. I put Effiey inside it, but then again, Effiey fail to eat everything up. It’s too much for his tiny stomach. So we take Effiey out and put him inside a very nice balang kaca.

Tp balang tu plak, too big for a small fish. Penat la nk tukar air kalo balang besar banget camtuh. Huh, so many failure relating to a small fish.. siyan Effiey. I’ve been looking for a small glass container for him since a few weeks back. Tak jumpe gak.. Dah gi Tesco, Carrefour, JJ etc. Tp tak jumpe yang dicari-cari. Last nite, hubby gave me a small aquarium that he bought for Effiey.

Huaarghhh.. (I almost turn into a cute but much-smaller-green animal called ‘the incredible hulk’) --> if I can make my own hulk, I wnt to be a blue one. Green is jst not my fav. I DON’T WANT AQUARIUM FOR EFFIEY LA.. he doesn’t need that. He wants to be in a nice and sophisticated balang kaca. Baru la nampak Effiey punyer professionalism. Spoil la.. dah beli kalo x pki kang membazir plak..

So smlm, buat kesekian kalinya, aku merajuk! Merajuk! Merajuk! Merajuk! Huh, xmo layan hubby.. xnk ckp dgn dia.. Tp aku baik ape.. Still salam n kiss his hand this morning. Cuma x senyum jer.. I know.. I’ve been so overreacted. Habis, dh hubby yg melayan sgt.. sape suruh.. muahahhahah..

Hubby, I’m not mad at you la.. In fact, it’s quite thoughtful of you to buy something for my Effiey. The truth is, after Iftar with the member of SC’s MT Association last nite, balik kena kemas rumah n prepare brg for my KMRmates get-together-Iftar at our place today, I’m exhausted! Petang ni nk blk masak for them lagi. I know it’s my thing n u got nothing to do wth it, but I can’t help it. When I’m too tired n don’t get enuff sleep, u know that I’ll get a bit cranky. Coz it’s only you that is there for me, so hubby kena la jadik mangsa untuk memujuk tatkala daku merajuk.. hehehhehe.. Not to worry k.. (n pls stop mintak maaf).. u did no wrong. Sj je nk jual mahal.. karang ok la ni..

I do enjoy married life actually! Layan bang, jgn tak layan..

HUMAN VERSION OF THE DEVIL!!!

Entry from my previous blog

How can a person turns into such a terrible monster? She's just a lil' gal.. Don't you have heart at all?

A DNA test which has an accuracy of 99.99% has confirmed that the body of a girl found in a sportsbag is that of Nurin Jazlin who had been missing for a month. Although the parents denied it, it doesn't matter. Whoever the gal is, Al-Fatihah for her.. No one can imagine what she has gone through and how much pain she has suffered.

Buat semua, mari la kita sama2 sedekahkan Al-Fatihah & Yassin untuk si mati..

Lelaki ini untukku

Entry from previous blog

LELAKI INI

Kasih, kenanganku

Ingatkah saat saat dulu

Kasih, apakah dirimu

Merasakan semua itu
Kemanapun langkahku pergi

Ku masih melihat bayanganmu cintaku

Dan kemanapun arah anginku berlari

Hati ini masih kau miliki

Chorus:Lelaki ini yang selalu mencintamu

Selalu, tanpa ragu

Lelaki ini yang selalu memuja

Hanya dirimu

Yang bertakhta dalam sanubariku
Sanubari ku

Aku yang mencintakan mu

Hanya dirimu?
Bridge:Karena cintaku, tak berbatas waktu

Karena cintaku, tak mengenal jenuh hatimu

Aku tahu kau lelaki terbaik untukku.. persetan dgn umpat keji orang kerana mereka tak merasai dan memiliki apa yg kita ada.. Aku akan belajar memaafkan dan melupakan kiranya itu yang terbaik.. Maafkan aku andai aku terkasar denganmu. Sememangnya aku tak pernah lepas dari melakukan kesilapan.. Demi dirimu yang kucintai, I'm willing to change.. I'm willing to be someone better... bukan untuk orang lain, tapi untuk dirimu, untuk aku, dan untuk masa depan kita.. Kerana, cinta yang satu padamu.. dan kerana, kaulah lelaki itu...

Tenderness of a wife atau kemengada-ngadaan seorang isteri? :P

Entry from my previous blog

Just finished talking to hubby jst nw.. ok lar.. marriage doesn’t stop him from calling me at least twice a day.. Hope nothing would stop him from doing so. My friends kata, ye la.. baru2 kawin, org tgh happy mestila camtu.. tp we've been doing ths since a couple of years back.. plus, ade je couple yg dh tua pn still jalan sama2 n holding hands lagi.. InsyaAllah.. Cuba kekalkan sampai ke tua..

Happy ke? Actually we don’t have to tell other people about everything.. if it is almost transparent, ppl can alwiz see it clearly.. At 1 time, even my mom notices it.. The way he looks at me, it’s not just ordinary looks. Mommy penah ckp ms blk kg ari tu.. “Eii.. jelesnya la haii.. asyik tenung je.. dari jauh pn dia pandang jer.. macam x puas2 pandang.. abah x penah pn pandang mommy camtu.. ms mula2 kawin dulu pn xde..”

When I asked him not to do it in front of others especially my parents, he simply replied.. “salah ke abang pandang isteri abang.. I want to capture all of your movement in my head.. in my heart.. so that I cud never forget u..” (lbh kurang camni la..) bila dia ckp cam ni, malu la plak.. well, I just dnt handle romantic thingy very well.. (Pd hal dlm ati berbunga riang.. getik la plak)
I think it is jst who he is.. don’t mind about revealing his feelings, don’t care bout me knowing his weaknesses.. x kisah bila berbicara soal perasaan.. some people said that malay man ni x romantic.. xnk express sumer ni.. tp he doesn’t mind it at all.. Luv is smthing tht need to be reminded, so it needs to be expressed with words and perbuatan..

I’m still adapting myself to marriage life. Susah rupanya kalo dh biasa idup dgn kawan2 yg riuh rendah n tetiba nk idup berdua je (dh la dia jenis mmg sejak azali lg x byk ckp).

Plg mencabar ms marah, dulu marah leh switch off handphone and totally shut him out. Ni marah pun dia ade depan mata, ish rasa nk sepak2 jer.. Especially during weekend, ms kita penat2 dr pg smpi ke ptg x berenti wat keje rumah n he jst sit there and watch TV. Panas btul! Maybe we need to divide the chores equally kot.. kalo housewives xpe la.. ni working women.. hehheheh.. Tp alhamdulillah, when it comes to his part, hubby jenis yang x payah nk suruh2 n bkn jenis pengotor yang suka letak brg bersepah or buang puntung rokok merata (mmg la tak coz dia x merokok).. Sampah pn xyah suruh gi buang, tau je timetable dia.. dh rajin tolong jemur kain.. stakat ni 2 tu je.. xpe.. xpe.. akan diasuh lagi..

Tp org laki ni pandai, time kita marah dia tau je nk tackle camne. So xleh nk marah lama2.. Guys, one of d way to calm her down is to hug ur wife (sambil mintak maaf).. Indescribable moment, bila kita dlm pelukan org yg kita sayang.. marah pn x jd nk lama2.. P/s – gals can oso do it. A friend use to say, x salah seorang isteri berlembut dgn suami, sbb nnt dia nyer reward tu mmg mengkagumkan.. As for her tenderness n willing to mengalah with her husband, hubby dia selalu belikan dia smthng.. best woo..

I used to think that I’ve chosen him so I’m stuck with him for the rest of my life.. (coz when we were dating last time, quite a number of guys approached me.. - perasan sket.. but no worries, it happened to most all of the gals out there, not jst me.. oso happened to u kan? yea.. u yg tgh baca ni la). Kadang2 tuhan bg options so that idup x la mendatar.. At one point, there’s a doctor, architect, engineer etc.. tp dh jodoh dgn hubby kuat n of course I ddnt regret it..

In fact, I’ve alwiz think if I end up wth the architect or any1 else, would they be as gud as hubby? I dnt thnk they can match him in certain sense.. I know how deeply hubby loves me.. n sometimes I did take him for granted (as human being, some of the time u did feel that u r better than others, aite?).. When I behave that way, this is wht I got from a friend who knows the story.. “Ape la u ni.. x baik treat dia camtu tau.. kesian dia.. put it ths way, not everybody cn be there for u like wht he did most all of the time..” Bad me..

Last nite lagi la.. I made him choose between EPL n me.. sj je.. guess wht d answer is, he’s willing to sacrifice Liverpool… mmg la he’s one of d kipas susah mati of Liverpool, mesti dia sj bagi jawapan tu coz xnk gaduh.. I penah ckp dulu, I’ll never ask my man to choose between me n football… but I just cnt help it… sj nk tau.. (eventhough nampak muka dia x ikhlas ms buat pilihan… hahhahah)

Hubby, when I ask u to stay with me till I fall asleep, it’s not bcoz I mengada-ngada… I just want u to be d lst moving object that I see b4 I close my eyes n ur body to b the lst thng tht my nose smell… when I wake up d next morning, I still wnt the same thng! Luv u…

I'm StiLl wItH d' SC

Entry from my previos blog

Quirk of fate… I thot tht I’ve really made up my mind. After being persuaded a couple of time by lots of people, especially my boss n director.. n plus some token that they are willing to give, I’m still with the SC.. muahahaha… what can I say, Libran sucks at decision making. But at least it shows that they appreciate me here and they are willing to do something to retain me... muahahha... Recognition is important!

Actually, I decided to stay with the SC coz I wnt to further my study… since they could provide the financing needed, I might as well just make the best out of it…

Hubby is also fine with the decision… he’ll pay for the course initial fees… but I still have doubt bout my decision to enroll in MBA programme… boleh ke aku study lg? cam dh beku jer… ppl alwiz say that Master’s degree is not the same with Bachelor’s degree. U really need to put ur mind and heart.. give 110%... is it really that tough? Dh takut dh ni…

MBA is not my goal actually, I wnt to do Msc Finance which is only available in UIA. Since I can’t drive, hubby said Gombak is a bit far from our home and office… it will be quite troublesome for him to send me to Gombak, wait till I finish my class n drive all the way back to Ampang. If it is just for a few months, it’s ok la… but it’s going to take at least 2 years… kesian hubby... dh ada ank nnt mesti lg susah.. hehheheh…. Xpe la.. MBA majoring in Investment & Applied Finance oso ok… I alwiz wanted to make capital market as my bread n butter…

Updates

Entry from my previous blog

It’s been a while… well, when I am too busy being happy, I jst couldn’t find enuff time to update ths blog… :P

Last time I was thinking of doing ths regularly. But I guess it is jst nt me.. tho I gt distinctions for both bahasa, still, writing is not my thing… muahahahha… I'm suppose to post my update on life after marriage… my first tomyam (which is a bit salty), my first sambal udang (hubby said jst nice. :P), my first half-boiled egg (it’s not even half done – hahhahah)…. And the title is “My First of Everything”…

Unfortunately, I didn’t gt chance to post it out… got problem with my PC @ home, n I’m 80% sure that I’ve lost everything that I’ve saved in that PC. Well, I’m not going to re-write that one coz altho i did, 1st touch wll never b d same…

Got piles of works on my desk but I’m not in d mood anymore… cant wait to go back. It’s almost 515… my last day in d SC wll b on 24th July (due to my resignation, I don’t really hv files anymore… L … ) cant describe my feeling to leave such a great organization. I’ve met lots of professional n super-friendly ppl here in d SC. Plus, not everybody gt chance to be in Regulator’s shoes… N d interview, pheww… d stages r jst getting tougher… One of my frenz went 4 d interview twice 2 get a scholarship to save a place in the SC but couldn’t gt in… I oso dnt knw why, she’s damn gud!

But still lots of ppl dnt knw wht SC is… they thot it is a security guard company. When I need to explain, this is wht I normally used… Like Bank Negara Malaysia regulates d banks and all financial institutions, the SC regulates brokers, investment banks & unit trusts companies (tho we r doing more than diz…)..

Whatever it is.. I’ve made up my mind… so, sayonara SC… huhuhu.. cant believe I’m doing diz.. at least nt now!

wHeN lUv iS iN d Air

Entry from my previous blog

I don’t know where to begin… I feel like writing since all d work tht I’m doing is starting to give me headache… Looking from one angle, I think this is totally not healthy… being under such pressure, it can actually effect my health.. hahahha.. Call me over-reacted, but I’m not the only 1 who’s complaining... Ask my colleagues, u’ll know d answer... :P

Hmm… some of my friends claimed that I’m kind of secretive when it comes to relationship, wedding planning etc.. to me, it’s not about keeping secret or hiding it.. Of course I’m happy with it and want d whole world to share our happiness. It’s just a matter of time.. Just waiting for everything to be in place, InsyaAllah, then only the announcement follows... (hehehhe.. macam artis plak..)

Why I chose him? Well, one thing for sure, luv isn’t about choosing. If I can choose with whom I want to fall in luv with, to me it’s not luv anymore.. Because luv comes naturally.. tho how hard you tried, you can never b true to urself if u deny ur own feelings.. This was when I knew that he’s the one.. Of course I can never be too sure. But it is worth to take such risk for someone who treats u like a princess an sees only d best in u..

Love isn't a decision. It's a feeling. If we could decide who we loved, it would be simpler, but much less magical. Trey Parker & Matt Stone; South Park, Chef Aid, 1998

When we 1st met, I’ve felt that ‘something’.. I don’t know who named it, but they call it ‘chemistry’.. I don’t know whether that word is good enuff to describe my feeling at that point of time… He was sitting there with his drink, being himself without trying to impress me at all.. His coldness attracted my attention then.. We spent hours of talking and I cant wait for our 2nd date. Actually, we neither think alike nor have the same interest. It’s like 2 strangers from different part of the world.. But we completed each other; it’s like having another side of me. Since then, we managed to get thru everythin’… I’ve accepted what jodoh is, ketetapan Allah SWT, my destiny that has been set, and will accept what my future is going to be.

Ask my housemates n CC on how we’d fought n argued.. It has been a lot and I know, it’s still lots more to go.. N I did say awful words to him eventho I didn’t really signify it, I cant imagine how hard he has been hurt by that. But he’s still there.. luving me with all his heart. I hope he will alwiz be… InsyaAllah.. God’s willing.. Hope we’ll be together till death do us part.. Or maybe we can die together.. :P

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I cant picture my life without him and his, without me.. I know even without each other, we will survive coz tht’s wht human beings do... S.U.R.V.I.V.E. But it will never be the same... Semoga jodoh ini berpanjangan dan berkekalan, Aminnn…

He has seen me in my highest high and my lowest low… He accepts me for who I am and doesn’t even try to change it. Luv is all he has and gives. He makes me realize, when we want our luv ones to be what they are not, it’s not luv anymore.. it’s compromise.. it’s negotiation… And I don’t want that…

To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return... to just give. Madonna, O Magazine January 2004.

I do admit, there are lots of people who just seem to see this is not right. Trust me, I'm not blinded by luv.. How can they tell that it’s not right when they themselves doesn’t even know and understand what is right and what is wrong… No matter how gud u think u r, they’ll alwiz be someone who think that it is not gud enuff. I don’t care what other people say anymore. In my quest for happiness, I’m d master of my own… It’s my call… I cant stop people from saying bad things. Bad mouthing is just another nature of human beings… True friend is actually the one who supports your decision and alwiz be by your side. And if you fall, they’ll give their hand for you to reach to… Not looking at you with satisfaction n laugh…

Hope that the blessings of all will alwiz be wth us. From a friend; LOVE IS...that nausea tic feeling when he's away and adrenaline rush when he’s near…

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P/s - To all d lovers out there, cherish every moment you have together.. Thank you Allah, for luv n life, for friends n families, for sad n joy....

~Satu Permulaan~

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